dobbs,

not sure if you're still taking email from me. i know you sometimes trashfilter people who've gotten on your nerves.

even if you are, i'm not sure you'll write back.

i just wanted to say that I enjoyed the last Shag very much.

i'm also hoping that you meant what you said in it. to the best of my knowledge, you've always meant what you've said in them.

anyway, i don't know how to ask eloquently so i'm just gonna ask bluntly: even though the latest shag wasn't addressed to me, any chance this was kinda sorta meant for me? if it wasn't, it sure as hell hit close to home.

love,

M.

-----Original Message-----
From: VictoryShag [SMTP:blogathon@victoryshag.com]
Sent: Tuesday, July 23, 2002 2:33 AM
To: list surpressed
Subject: [Victory Shag 7.23.2.1]

> heya,
>
> >Good God, Dobbs, let's not call it advice. It's more like,
> >I don't know, I'm the canary in the coal mine. I can't
> >give advice at all.
>
> i considered this advice:
>
> >Someday you gotta stop looking.
> >You know that, right?
>
> whether you meant it that way or not.
>
> you wrote:
>
> > I've fucked it up beyond redemption. And it was
> > the real deal. I can see that now.
> > I've groveled, crawled, cried, begged.
> > He's done. I think I've made a really big mistake.
>
> believe me, i've been there. i probably will be again.
>
> i think we both know what it's like to "rub her so much--till there's nothing
> left but dust."*
>
> we rub with words, with gestures--we rub with silence.
>
> i know the emptiness i'm sure you've felt. the desperation and depression.
> i'm sure our circumstances are as different as they are similar. the
> circumstances aren't important. the end result, that's what important: the
> ache, the emptiness, the lack.
>
> i know true regret. you know it, too.
>
> it isn't a missed opportunity or an act or word we want to recall. true
> regret lives in the certainty that you've done this: erred beyond
> forgiveness. not his or her or their forgiveness, though it might seem that
> way, but your own.
>
> you say you can't give advice. that's okay. i usually can't take it. but let
> me say this: you *can* unring a bell. i've done it. there's nothing harder,
> but there's also nothing more important.
>
> thanks for writing,
>
> d.
> { http://www.victoryshag.com/today/7.23.2.1/ }
>

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